Stress

Just went through the two most stressful weeks I have had in a long time.. Races, events between them, driving, and the lack of training time and recovery made me a ticking bomb.

I don't know if I can diffuse myself or just explode.. I need some time to find myself and go on with my journey. I know what I should do it's just a matter of executing it.

These are trying times.. I must move on, I must survive.

Innocence

Life can bring us down sometimes.. That's what everyone says at one point or another.. Today I realized that is not really life that bring us down but it's the things that we fill our lives with that do, not life itself.. As I was getting ready to race, a bunch of 6th graders started cheering for me and my teammates.. I couldn't help it but to go and get them even more excited that they already were.. I took a picture with them and that's when I shared a part of their innocence.. It was very liberating and my mind was completely clear.. See, those kids have not filled their lives with greed, hate, jealousy, or materialism.. They truly want to be there for the experience, the chance to laugh and enjoy themselves.. It felt good to be free of all that.. It's a feeling I will look forward to.

Patience

Carl Jung wrote "Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word happy would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. It is far better take things as they come along with patience and equanimity."
As much I want things to appear such as medals and happiness I must be patient and realize that those things can not be accomplished in a couple of weeks. One step at a time, forward, knowing exactly why is it that I am going that way.. That's the formula to success.
Patience, however, can diminish the passion.. If I don't have the mental strength to balance patience with personal achievements then the passion will become stale. I will be patient, but I will be strong every time it is demanded out of me.. Especially if I am the one demand it.

Fear

As I'm looking at a beautiful lake, reading about the birkebeiner, I can't not help to think about the big picture of all the things that I'm going through.. I should be scared.. I should be buckling at my knees when I see at what I am against.. But I am not.. I am learning, I am evolving, I am becoming what I will be in a couple of years.. I see fear and I laugh and they know I'm coming.. And if they don't know then they are the ones that should be afraid..

Lifetime..

Most people usually have many paths to follow and many ways to follow that path in their lifetime.. Some people just follow one.. Either way, some of us do not care to know where other people come from and how their path has come to cross theirs.. Here we all are, if you're reading this it means our paths have crossed at some point in our lifetimes.. Are you asleep at the wheel or are you aware? Do you care to know where I am going? Do you know where you are going? Are you racing through your life time to win whatever it is that you're rushing for? Here we are..

Guns of the real patriots

Abraham Lincoln, George Washington, Benjamin Franklin, or anyone printed on American bills did not have to raise a gun TO PROVE that they're American and that they're willing to fight for their country. They did it with guts, character, and intelligence.

All this talk about guns, it's ownership, and ridiculous catch 21 scenarios against the president we have elected as a nation in the eve of Christmas after a tragic act of violence against innocent lives just proves that we are scared, we have lost our pride in one another, and that this nation needs to wake up..

No one will ever take what's rightfully ours, if its truly ours.. Our self imposed right of taking everything for granted is making us weak and tearing us apart. It's not about guns, it's not even about being right or wrong.. It's about being there for one another.. As a son, daughter, siblings, father, mother, friend, and most importantly as an AMERICAN.

Vivere militare est

To live is to fight.. Life is uncertain, death is most certain.. Fill everything in between with things you could be proud of.. Don't ever let anyone think you don't deserve what you have, and own up and learn from your mistakes.. To live is to fight! Fight with honor, fight with class, fight til' your bones collapse..